Monday, August 12, 2013

Call me maybe or call me Sybil, my five personalities

Mom Slipper- Personality 1
I work in a  middle management position in a department store, selling luxury merchandise. You sure as hell couldn't tell by my feet.

Good morning! Today I am wearing my Mom shoes and personality. I make breakfast for my kids, or at least throw some Eggo waffles in the toaster. I tend to be a little cranky, don't often brush my hair and pretend it is okay to go grocery shopping without washing my face or brushing my teeth and hair as long as I wear sunglasses and yoga pants.
Weekend Warrior-Personality 2
This is my look when I am acting like I am really getting into shape and going for my 3 mile walk. I usually have miss matched socks, which stems from the mountain of laundry that needs to be folded sitting on my dining room table (or maybe my kitchen, they are both one and the same) . I feel happy, I love the outdoors, I'm a little sweaty but comfortable. I still think it is okay to greet people at the local post office, or fellow dog walkers with un brushed hair and teeth, and I still hide behind sunglasses. I think I look fit and can still go without make-up. When I get back from my walk and look in the mirror a gasp emits from my mouth because I seem surprised to see who is looking back at me, at least until I turn down the dimmer.

Executive with a mission-Personality 3
Ouch, pointy toes and heels. But here is the look I can hide behind the best. No sunglasses needed, I hide behind a black business suit. Jacket buttoned, plain beige shirt beneath and a pencil skirt. All business. My direct eye contact, and strong handshake and big smile only goes on with foundation, eyeliner, lip gloss and my black suit. I've got myself and everyone else fooled. By the way, I had to photo shop out the veins in my feet.

Still Sexy Fashionista- Personality 4
 This is when I think I am still awesome enough to wear 4 inch heels and platforms and I want to show my friends that I know and wear the latest fashion trends. Better than the executive look because the toe is open, it still sucks when I walk because my feet clunk down as if they are not truly attached to my feet.Therefore when I am my "Still Sexy Fashionista" self I try to sit down for the majority of the time. However there was a study done in the UK that women wear high heels as part of evolution, and I guess if you wear high heels, your DNA continues, and if you don't wear high heels, your lineage will come to a screeching halt. I don't wear high heels often, only when I am displaying personality #3, because I believe it will help make me appear more important than I really am. If it fools me, maybe it will fool everyone else.

This is really me-Personality 5

If you could see my hands, you would know that I am holding a cold glass of wine, or vodka lemonade in my kicked back state of mind. Still un-showered, but now with my teeth brushed, I am happiest and whole. Veins and all in my flip flops.  

Thursday, August 8, 2013

1200 calories, 132 days in and 65 to go. It's all about numbers.

It was 132 days ago
that I stepped on the scales and saw the number 150. It was the day before my 54th birthday,and it wasn't a pretty day. Today the scale reads 145.8lbs, it has been a bad food week. The last scale reading was 142.8. That was the day after an uncomfortable night of discontented intestines, after eating a lump crab cake at the shore. There is an upside to diarrhea, although I really don't recommend it as a weight loss program! Then I followed that up with chocolate cake (2 pieces), at a bon voyage gathering at work for a fellow manager. Pasta,and pizza with my dad and no surprise that the scale is reading 145.8. Crap!
So today, I feel a little defeated and frustrated with my continual lapse into BEE, and other self sabotage. So I have decided to try advance meal planning. Allocating my food first thing in the morning and counting out the calories and nutrients so I know where I stand. This is easy to do today because I don't need to go to work until noon. Days that I need to get the kids off to school and be there at 8:30...well I'll cross the precipice when I get there.

Here is what breakfast, lunch and a snack look like for today. For a total of 941 calories....

Here is the nutritional grade I get on my calorie counter...
Nutrition Grade

Calorie Distribution

 Fat - 27.7%
 Pro - 29%
 Carb - 43.4%
 Alcohol - 0%
 Other - 0%

Consumed: 941 cal
Daily Target: 1,200 cal
So far so good. But there are scary things lurking around the corner, calling me, luring me to cheat, just a nibble...
Like any other addict I have  tough choices to make every day. And every day is a battle to make the right choices. Today I am turning away from the sugar addiction, the chocolate high, and as I enjoy my coffee and breakfast (241 calories), I contemplate my form of exercise for today. Should I try a Barre 3 class, go for my walk with Dunkin, or drive to the gym for a combo of cardio and weights?
My loyal training partner wins today...who could turn down such enthusiasm... 200 calories to burn today and 65 days to go until my daughter's wedding and I am not giving up. 10 pounds to lose.